August 16th, 2024.
This article is scheduled as I wrote it last week.
Because this Friday, this whole weekend actually, I am a knight. Or a crusader. Or a fair elven maiden. Or a kick-ass demon hunter. And more.
This weekend, I play. I role play actually.
Now what is Role Playing or RP?
Role Playing refers to a type of game where players assume the roles of fictional characters and participate in collaborative storytelling and adventures. In role-playing games, players immerse themselves in their roles, each with unique traits, backgrounds, and abilities. They engage in collaborative storytelling, where their decisions and actions shape the narrative and influence the game's outcome. Guided by a set of rules and a game master, players explore various scenarios and challenges, often embarking on adventures or quests within a richly crafted world. This form of gaming encourages creativity and imagination, as players must think on their feet, solve problems, and interact with others to advance the story. The dynamic nature of role-playing games fosters teamwork, improvisation, and a deep engagement with the game’s universe, making each session a unique and immersive experience.
Both my grown-up sons are Role Players or Rolistes as we call them in French. They have been for over a decade. Last year, during a festival, I finally gave myself to give it a try.
I looooooved it!!
Role playing intertwines improvised theater, playing with dices, strategy, imagination, creativity, and interactive storytelling.
My jam, literally!! I can’t believe I did not try it before...
This weekend, it’s Festival time again!!
So, this article is scheduled and I’ll be unavailable… as games and adventures await!
I will be fully immersed in various fictitious worlds and stories.
Way to shut off the mind. Meditation has got nothing on Role Playing.
Which is the one thing I need right now, while the healing is happening in the depths of my psyche and body. Shut off my mind, stop overthinking everything in my own life and business, quieting and calming my thoughts, reducing mental chatter. Creating mental space or stopping the incessant flow of thoughts to achieve a state of relaxation or focus.
To be. Here and Now.
Well… not exactly here as I might be fighting trolls in some remote forest…
And not exactly now as I might be in Constantinople in 1423.
But you get it.
To just be. And enjoy.
Play. Like really play.
Not only metaphorically, but physically.
You should try it! (If there is no Role Playing opportunities around you, a good board game with friends will do the trick!)
This festival is coming at the right time to remind me that this is part of my healing plan.
So I play. As much and as often as I can.
And choose to be happy with what is, at this moment, my reality.
I choose to be content now.
I choose to want less novelty, to desire less changes, less burdens also.
I embrace change and new experiences, but I'm choosing to let go of the desire to control or shape reality.
I allow and accept what is and I am OK with all of it.
My intention for now is to welcome what is and wish for peace, not success or constant growth.
I wish for what is already here.
I wish I am able to appreciate and enjoy all that is.
I release any tension I hold about the future, including the anxiety that accompanies it. I let go of the expectation that stems from a desire to shield myself from potential disappointments. By doing so, I free myself from the need to control outcomes and protect against the fear of letdowns. This act of surrender allows me to embrace the present moment more fully and to approach the future with an open heart, unburdened by the weight of anticipation and self-imposed limitations. In letting go of these fears and expectations, I create space for new possibilities and experiences to unfold naturally, without the constraints of worry or resistance
I allow myself to be fully happy with what is and to thrive in the now.
And play with it!
This weekend it’s about role playing. Next week I’m going to London with a bestie to indulge into a few musicals (and some shopping?)
I find balance in the flow of life, in the variations of energy available, in rest, in play, in work and yes, in stress, in joy and anger just as well.
I allow myself to be in that flow that is the healing process. I grieve, I feel, I laugh, I thrive in the now, in the flow of what is offered to me by the Universe.
And let go, yet again, of expectations on how things should be. And in that process, I let go of fear as well.
I remember that healing also involves self-compassion. I give myself the grace of kindness during this process. I recognize that letting go is an act of self-love and self-care, even if it feels painful in the moment.
I know that healing is a journey, and it's okay to take it one step at a time.
And in that being in the flow, in that allowing, I find beauty, I find lightness and I begin to experience a newfound sense of freedom. It's like shedding layers of heavy armor that have weighed me down for far too long. With each expectation I let go of, I create space for positivity, growth, and joy to enter my life.
Freedom means rediscovering who I truly am – my authentic self, unburdened by the expectations and years of negativity. It's about reconnecting with my passions, dreams, and the things that bring me happiness.
And I find peace, even if the earth is still moving below my feet, even if the waters are still stirring.
In the now.
In the flow of what is presented to me by the Universe.
Without fighting it, trying to bend it or block it.
I pay attention to what is. And rejoice for it.
In a rebellious and joyous act of self-liberation I embrace the now, and the here, and whatever is my reality now, hoping to find myself rising like a phoenix from the ashes, emerging stronger, wiser, and more in tune with my true self
I surrender the flow of life.
And play in the stirs with gratitude.
I would be so happy to hear from you about all that. Thank you in advance for your comment.
So much for today …
See you soon, for my next online adventures!
Until then I send you love, light and gratitude.
Isaya
And slowly, slowly, I might begin dreaming new dreams… As in…
One of my dreams has been to find get my novel published. Lost Harmony is about a modern world in chaos which finds hope in ancient Greek goddesses awakened from their slumber over many centuries to restore balance. They come to the rescue of humanity and the planet, the misfortunes of which have all been caused by the male gods in their desperate attempt to preserve their power. I sent it to Hay House as part of a writer’s workshop. They did not choose it. It’s OK. I can live with rejection, thank the Goddess!!
I still desire for it to be traditionally published. I’m working on that in the background, manifesting the perfect publisher.
But also, I ask… Can you help? Do you know any publisher that might be interested?
Now…
Maybe you feel like you want to support me as I navigate the Cancer journey?
I am OK and grateful to receive any Reiki, Prayers, Light, Love, Hugs or any other healing modal sent with pure intentions and love.
As far as advice and "recipes" are concerned, please ask me before you download your knowledge, links or recommendations onto me. Overwhelm is always lurking…
On a very practical way, because I’m going to be focusing on my healing, I will have less money coming in…
One way to help and support me is to actually buy something from me!
You can find some of my Goddess Connected programs here:
PS: Please bear in mind that I am reclaiming my journey and that my solutions and my path are mine and mine only. They are not intended to be a guide or a list of advice, a handbook or manual or any kind, least of all medical. This is just me sharing my journey.
PPS: Many of you have been asking for news and updates. This cancer path has been kicking my ass on so many levels, but the main one is the very vocal reminder that I have to be selfish and take care of myself first. Yet I promised I would give a general update and here it is…
The surgery to remove the mass in my kidney has been postponed to September 26th. So I got my summer back. Did I rush to "do" something with it, like go back to work?
Nope. I rushed to keep my plan of slowing down and allow for the brewing of the next phase.
Moreover, I’m having to take some rather strong drugs for the TB so I’m rather tired… So this August, I have a plan of sound baths, boardgames, crafting, resting, reading books, writing, welcoming friends and family and using my hammock to the best of my abilities… I will write some posts for you, but they might be shorter … and the podcast episodes might be recorded rather than live.
As for September... I have a plan and I’ll tell you everything about it very soon!
