To be or not to be … Wait, that’s already taken ?

So …. Almost halfway through the year … wow ! I did mention that I’m assessing approximately everything in my life this year didn’t I ?

And we’re almost halfway through …

It kinda freaks me out that I don not have more “answers” by now. Basically I have  … more questions …

Am I going to go full out and try the Artist’s path (exhibitions, galleries, bla bla)?

Am I going to play it safe (??) and bend my career towards a more crafty (thus maybe guaranteeing a smaller but more regular income …you did read the maybe, didn’t you ?)

Am I going to stay here, in this area, this house ? Full time ? Commit to moving or just to more traveling ?

Am I going to work off line, in local markets and galleries, with local women in women circles, red tents and workshops, speaking my truth in French ?

Or am I going to go full online, working only in English and orienting my “products” (I do not like this word …) towards a long distance, remote, American/British/Australian customer base ?

Am I going to be mostly an creator ? Or mostly a coach ?

Soooo many questions as you can see …

Then there’s the more technical questions …

Who is my ideal customer ? Do I even have and /or want one ?

And HOW on earth do I get his/her email address so as to communicate ? I did discuss that already here

So let’s stick to the main life defining ones … for now. The tech questions are secondary anyway !

I took a  personality test this morning … I looove those, I feel like a 14 year old! The result ? “The protagonist”

“Protagonists are natural-born leaders, full of passion and charisma. Forming around two percent of the population, they are oftentimes our politicians, our coaches and our teachers, reaching out and inspiring others to achieve and to do good in the world. With a natural confidence that begets influence, Protagonists take a great deal of pride and joy in guiding others to work together to improve themselves and their community.”

Sure. I’ve had similar results in a numerous stream of tests … So I’m a leader with not so many followers for now… A coach with no regular income from customers … An unknown artist …YES, I KNOW, it’s a phase, I’m just beginning, I just have to stay consistent, I am manifesting my dream life.

BUT… WHAT IS MY DREAM LIFE ? AS I was saying … I’m not sure yet … Then there is JP … I love his videos… I saw that one yesterday …

So funny !!! Also so true, in some regards … I then get even more confused about my plans, dreams, etc … Because I DO NOT want to be THAT life coach … And, as I stated before… I have no “rags to riches” story … I did and I do have a peculiar life-story BUT no crazy success out of the blue hell for me …

So … where am I getting at ?

Well, I don’t know … Just sharing with you guys that my life is mostly interrogation these days … Trying, testing, assessing…. slightly scattered I know … But to know where I DEFO want to go… I feel the need to experiment various paths, seeking for the ones that have the better balance of joy and abundance …

As you might have noticed if you’re reading carefully …

I insisted on the consistency needed … and the scattering I’m experiencing …

Oh! sweet paradox, how shall I solve you ?

So one truly miracle solution (because I do have miracle solutions at hand, I’m a natural born leader, I told you … lol !) is meditation.

What ? I did not invent that ? There is a precedent ?

So what ?

It still remains true that ACTUALLY taking some time everyday to meditate (however you choose to do that! and I will talk about that more in my incoming posts!) guarantees a miracle.

But it needs doing, not just wishful thinking … I  had a very regular practice for a long time and I got lost for a while … I’m back on track now and it starts to show … miracle solutions , ideas and decisions are lurking around the corner … I’m so happy I recaptured that sensation !

On that note, I will go and meditate for a while… Adn suggest you do the same!

Sending, as always, love, light and gratitude

Isaya

 

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  1. val says:

    Thanks for sharing, love

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